Ravage's lj hell

Tue, 28 Oct 2008 12:45:41 GMT

Oh. I still have this thing. Uh o_O

random rant

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 04:57:56 GMT

I'm about to rant and rave about work, and I don't care if people don't want to hear it.

As a Sales Associate, I am not only everyone's bitch, I'm now a cashier. They just trained me today. This pretty much means, that now when they call for extra cashiers off the floor, I have go go up front as well, leaving my department behind. While I'm working as cashier, my department is devoid of its employee. I catch flack, because MY work in MY department is not getting done, because I'M up front as cashier because hey, them's the rules.

Pets is my department. It is my responsibility. I cannot get all my work done in my department, if I'm DOING SOMEONE ELSE'S JOB. I had two longcarts full of freight to work today at 2pm. They SAT THERE until 10pm. I had two carts of returns/misplaced items to get rid of. We are no longer allowed to use shopping carts, and there they were. Before I had even clocked in. I never did get to clean the fish tanks LIKE I WAS SUPPOSED TO. I did clean out the dead fish though. If it werent for Sam helping me out, I wouldn't have gotten as much as I did done.

Our store manager is an idiot. She comes to my department while I'm stocking cans of catfood. This is our conversation:
"Hey jason, why aren't you up front running register?"
"I was never trained, and I'm doing freight."
"Why weren't you trained yet? You've had all this time."
"I never got the time. I'm always working here."
"Well go up front. I'll have someone train you."

There was nobody working tonight in the adjacent department, and then Pets was empty. Wait, no. There was nobody in ANY of the adjacent departments, because Katie from hba was sent up to get trained as well. Pity they've been cutting actual cashiers' hours, and sending us up more often. Did you know that cashiers make more than us? This is their way of cutting costs, because of everyone stealing shit from walmart. The money has to come from somewhere.

I am VERY FUCKING HAPPY EYES I AM

(note: at this point, I don't care if people don't reply. I post this to remember.

what's that saying for anonymous, never forget, never forgive?)

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 02:44:34 GMT

    one of my siblings (outside the household) may end up with drug/attempted murder charges. another's fallen down again (he's the one with 12+ back surgeries),
    my dad's ex girlfriend is being a bitch and having CYS come over to 'investigate' our house because her son can't stop his fucking lying mouth (he hates my bro-in-law, so he'll fuck everyone else over without a second thought.). She's also trying to hit him up for more child-support DESPITE knowing he barely has enough to pay it, and the bills.
    dad's other ex-gf doesn't realize she's not his girlfriend anymore and can't seem to get the hint and is driving him nuts.
    the kids here are driving EVERYONE insane and apparently don't give a shit about anyone's feelings, much less my own. When you're treated like dirt by a fucking five year old. so its funny that while everyone else has been depressed, edgy, and yelling all day, I suprisinly haven't, until a couple hours ago when I started vaccumming the downstairs. I had kids running and jumping right where I was cleaning, making a bigger mess than before. I wanted to beat the shit out of someone.
    But, I didn't. When I finished, I left, and climbed up the mountain a little ways behind our house and just sat there, overlooking the city. This is 2008 you fucking dolt of a people. Don't you have anything better to do than to fuck our family over to thoroughly?

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 02:56:30 GMT

if i told you today was one of the lousiest days i've had this entire year, would you care?

lets just say these few things. the new ICS guy who's been working in pets doesn't care about his fucking job and has been bullshitting all morning while me and Atim busted our asses to get stuff done. There were so many customers today buying shit and generally getting in the way that they were taking more crap than I could stock the shelves with. Most of Pets dept was literally fucking EMPTY, and every five minutes, the section of aisle that i had just cleaned up, had gotten wrecked again.

around quarter til seven, one of my managers tells me to go up front and help cashiers. I told him that I was literally the only person in the corner of the store. I was covering HBA and Toys because they were on lunch. He said 'oh, it'll be alright'. bullshit.

and i'm still selling and catching fish in all of this. when I clocked out at 9pm tonight, my department was a total fucking wreck, and the cart of breakpacks (misc crap boxes) was STILL yet untouched from last night because hey hey, new ics guy didn't want to do it
was talking to jarrot from toys about it later on and he tried to help me calm down. Helped a little, but I was still depressed and annoyed with the entire night

my jaw's been killing me all night despite a ton of tylenol and orajel. I'm fit to be tied e.e. that's about it though. that's six hours.

fuck formatting and fuck spellcheck.

edit: second life avatar:
http://i217.photobucket.com/albums/cc37/ravagefox/byg_horsie2.jpg (fucking huge horsie)

Is the mic on?

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 00:37:00 GMT

It seems I've forgotten that I still had an account here. Six months fly by when you're up to your tits in stress. Still working at Walmart, still in the Pets department, no show of anything that actually uses my MM degree yet. It seems that 'salesfloor associate' means you're the company's bitch and errand boy. I'm not dead, just hanging in until life deals me an ace or at the very least, a four of clubs.

Oh, and its fucking cold out and I both love and hate it.

memo to [the] society of people who contemplate too much

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 16:52:11 GMT

i seem to have the naivety to see the small things others overlook, even the seemingly unimportant. While everyone is worrying about what their day will bring, i'm enjoying the cool breeze of summer, the green of the trees, the way the world moves past my window. this is not to say that i single-mindedly watch the world pass me by; i am active in it in my own way.when i smile, you smile. when i accomplish anything, it makes me feel like i'm not incompetent, that i'm worth something. i take pride in being able to face what challenges face me. i take each day one at a time. i may not be perfect, especially in the eyes of others, but this does not bring me down. i realize that living is a gift that must be cherished. even when the world is going down in flames, my iceberg floats steadily along the sea.

i'm not a tree-hugging hippy. i'm just coping with life.

walmart <3?

Tue, 12 Jun 2007 03:28:14 GMT

walmart has been severely understaffed lately, or at least the schedules are so screwed up. my co-worker in pets had to run cashiers all night, leaving me to do pets alone. another co-worker in the department next to us had to go home early for an emergency, leaving me to cover for them as well. nobody in the other two departmetns near us when i went to lunch, so there was not one single associate on the floor of the ENTIRE east wing of walmart. several phone calls, selling fish to several customers one after the other later, i finally get to do some zoning, then rush to get my garbage done before i had to clock out. all through the entire day though, was the annoying constant beeping of the floodlights malfunctioning. we called maintinence to fix it several times and they never did.

for anyone wondering, i have been working at walmart for well over six weeks now. many of my fellow associates are quite cool and helpful, and easy to get along with. Most of the customers I've dealt with have been kind and courteous to me, and patient. The customers I have not met for some reason are lazy or apathetic becuase i keep finding stupid crap strewn among my designated department. McDonalds cups in dry cat-food. pants in canned food. (unrelated: used condoms inside a blender. not kidding), and other assorted crap.

and while working the pets department is not hard, there is one section i loathe. It's not canned foods. It's not the 50lb bags of dog food. it's not selling fish, cleaning out dead fish, or feeding fish. It's the 8ft section of dog TOYS. yes, those little squeaky toys of various design and sounds, some of which electronic, others made of latex or felt. people when they play with them, pick them up, or whatever, never ever ever put them back where they got them. (this goes the same with all other aisles but moreso here) it took me over two hours to tear that whole section apart and put it back together properly. ah the joys of retail.

i don't give a shit if you have a difficult time reading this, as i am extremely exhausted and must repeat this routine for the rest of the week. this is rf signing off, and seig heil walmart!

Mon, 14 May 2007 04:14:57 GMT

    Well, I've been working at Walmart for at least a week now.
    I'm still having fun at least. Busy as hell. Lot of work to do even in Pets. Today was my first day solo. I was the only person in Pets all day. And for most of the day, I had to cover for Toys as well because the guy didn't show up until afternoon shift. I had morning 7am-4pm. So I ran around all day, organizing our department's section in the back room, carrying out stock items, cleaning up the aisles, tidy up the shelves, run for claims out front, answer phone calls, care for and sell the fish, and poke fun at the cosmetics girls next door. :P    So I'm off monday, and go back tuesday. Fun Fun.

    Edit: Almost forgot. I've met only one stupid customer so far. She took the dog shirt off the cardboard hanger right in front of me and when she was done looking at it, tossed it and the hanger atop the box of dog toys. IN FRONT OF ME. teenagers.

    Also, I did more stuff. Anthro Guilmon in Second Life: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/55277667/

omg

Sat, 05 May 2007 22:23:53 GMT

I am officially an employee of Walmart.

Discuss.

Damn.

Thu, 03 May 2007 03:24:42 GMT

Well, we didn't go to the MCR (My Chemical Romance) concert today. It was cancelled. Seems that both members of MCR and Muse got food poisoning after a gig down in Virginia, so they're going to reschedule the next pittsburg concert at a later date.

So we had a bbq.

Growing up the Hard Way

Tue, 01 May 2007 01:39:19 GMT

[21:32] <rf`> i cleaned the fuck out of the livingroom and rode ten miles into Woodvale to watch the trains go by
[21:33] <rf`> tomorrow i will work on the front awning, go to the DMV for a photo id so i can get drunk in a goth bar after an MCR concert wendsday night.
[21:33] <rf`> thursday i haven't a fucking clue what i'm doing, but it'll involve a hammer. friday, ditto but also babysitting. saturday is orientation for my new job at Walmart
[21:34] <rf`> i want a day where i don't have to talk to anyone, do jack shit, or go anywhere
[21:35] <rf`> 24 hours of pure, unadultered, *-ME-*time
[21:35] <rf`> i'll probably lock the nonexistant door to my bedroom and jerk off to furry porn
[21:36] <rf`> :3

Also, a chocolate chip cookie, a brownie, and a keg of Daniel Jackson to whoever tells me where the subject heading is from.

a new light.

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 05:39:45 GMT

Posted for truth.

(00:12:56) MNB: My observation, as it is, might be slightly limited, but I've noticed that you have a somewhat... Well, fawning attitude. And this tends to attract certain people who take advantage of this attribute in people. And when this is exploited... Well, it can sort of chip away at a person's ego and sense of self-respect. And they tend to get depressed, emotional, etc. This is just my own observation, so take it as you will.

(00:15:22) MNB: I'm not saying that being friendly is a bad thing... But it might be in your best interest as to who you give your love and attention to. I can tell you're a decent guy, you really are. You've got a level head on your shoulders, which I can totally dig.

(00:16:26) rf`: i know i have a bit of a fawning attitude. that's just the kind of person I am. The problem isn't that others are exploiting me in any way. The problem is that I'm getting worked up over things that don't even involve me, but I still see around me.

(00:17:26) rf`: especially things that involve my friends. they (i'm quite sure) enjoy it (else they wouldn't be doing it in the first place), but I don't, and that difference is what's gnawing at me. Not sure if that's the best way to put it. never was the best with words

(00:21:12) MNB: Sometimes, and I know this sounds horrible man... You need to be a dick if you wanna keep your sanity.

(00:21:59) MNB: Don't let everything bug you, it really doesn't help yourself if you let everyone else's problems bother you.

take me

Sun, 17 Dec 2006 01:45:25 GMT

[20:17] * rf` lives in a house where fighting is the norm
[20:17] * Alisa does too
[20:18]

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[20:17] * rf` lives in a house where fighting is the norm
[20:17] * Alisa does too
[20:18] <rf`> >> ROTT - yousuck.mp3 <<
[20:26] * Heather does too, sigh.
[20:27] <rf`> speaking of fighting
[20:27] <rf`> all the parents got into a big fight over the kids right outside of my room
[20:27] <rf`> and i'm just standing in my doorway, listening
[20:27] <rf`> its kinda depressing that so much fighting goes on in this house
[20:28] <rf`> you have my dad who's got his own problems, and tries to take control of the situation, you got the other dad who's a hot- tempered mongolian who doesnt take shit from anyone, and you have his wife who hyperventilates and yells and freaks
[20:29] <rf`> can i move in with someone?
[20:29] <rf`> if I can find a job somewhere i'll gladly go
[20:29] <rf`> hell i'll do shit jobs if i have to
[20:30] <rf`> doing my best to keep calm, which means i get real quiet and withdrawn, but it can only help so much
[20:30] <Alisa> wish i could offer space
[20:31] <rf`> if i could move to europe and adapt
[20:31] <Alisa> you wouldn't need to adapt
[20:31] <Luke> I'd offer my place but I already have two roomates
[20:31] <Alisa> except your spelling, driving on the rightside of the road and renaming a few items :P
[20:31] <Luke> yeah all you'd need to do is add the letter u at random to words
[20:32] * Alisa thwaps Luke
[20:32] <Luke> :P
[20:32] <rf`> alisa: considering i dont drive yet (but will soon), that'll be ok :P
[20:32] <rf`> hell i already type british
[20:32] <Alisa> no, he just need to learn to stop removing u from words
[20:32] <rf`> you spell colour like a brit! have at you
[20:32] <Alisa> :D
[20:32] <rf`> i'll bet you they're still fighting downstairs
[20:33] <rf`> well, the mum's with her three kids. they're in the room beside me watching a christmas cartoon
[20:38] <rf`> and i just went ballistic on the kids downstairs for carrying on to an extreme
[20:39] <rf`> i'm literally shaking

Still alive

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 08:17:27 GMT

I graduated from ITT Tech with Honors. I now have an associates in multimedia. Yay me.

Now I can start looking for a job.

Also:

Been on SL much, irc less, moody as hell, and etc etc.

Bug me and stuff.

I'm not dead

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 09:51:04 GMT

HAY GUYZ IM NOT DED

Seriously though, I'm doing alright. I had to leave due to problems at home. Sorry I couldn't give any warning, but there was no way to send out a message. Things are alright now though. In the meantime, I did shit!

http://manifesteddestiny.com/ravagedw/doom2/rfst/
http://manifesteddestiny.com/ravagedw/doom2/strife/

http://www.deviantart.com/view/37392137/
http://www.deviantart.com/view/37392074/
http://www.deviantart.com/view/37391980/
http://www.deviantart.com/view/37391609/
http://manifesteddestiny.com/ravagedw/wtf/bane.png

gasp. i drew again

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 18:52:40 GMT

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/35003604/

Lyxness <3

bleh

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 05:09:42 GMT

emo time

cant for the life of me figure out why i'm depressed tonight. probably my bowels being bitchy, being left out in a few places, net's always on the fritz, and everytime i say no to sex, everyone else pushes me closer to it.

the only thing saving me from dissapearing for the night would be the music.

food for thought

Thu, 18 May 2006 13:01:23 GMT

If I were born a woman with a giant rack, I wouldn't have to play with everyone else's.

...

Thu, 11 May 2006 21:03:20 GMT

All the confusion and paperwork with my school, just to prove to the Social Security offices in my town, just to prove to them that I exist and am who I say I am, just to get a replacement SS card. And here, I find out that office gave me the WRONG paperwork for my registrar to fill out, and also found out that it really wasn't necessary in the first place. All I have to do is get my school ID renewed (not hard) and then the SS office will accept it and voila.. Now to get a replacement birth certificate... ugh.

To top it off, In two weeks comes my Mock interview for Portfolio class (which means suit and tie, resume and portfolio (of which I've yet to start)), my capstone project is almost finished--but I still have to do ALLLLL the documentation for it, and get my presentation ready for the week after, aaand.. shit.. my online course. I know for sure that I've failed it, without a doubt. BUT, I'll keep working on it for as long as I can.. wheee 9.9

AND. I need to get a job soon. We're getting piled so badly on debt that they're going to shut a lot of utilities off here, and there's a possibility we may lose the house.

So yeah, I'm a wreck right now.

well

Tue, 02 May 2006 15:35:21 GMT

I've been run down all week. Work piling up here at school, family crises all over the place. My one sister who came up with her husband and two and a half children from Arkansas, have already left, going BACK to arkansas, because my OTHER sister who lives up here is a life-ruining bitch. Dammit they said they'd visit before they left and they didn't.

Important stuff:
http://www.deviantart.com/view/32703445/
http://www.deviantart.com/view/32703609/
http://www.deviantart.com/view/32703543/

shut up about the puppies

Mon, 01 May 2006 22:54:06 GMT

When you think things go up, you find they've already smashed into the ground
WHen you think you're right, its a lie
When you feel things can't get worse, they have been for the last several years
When your own sister (and her daughter) tries to ruin your father's life, you lose a little faith in family
When you feel so depressed that your classwork suffers, you question your own abilities
When you look at the world around you and realize that no, its not getting better, you question your own beliefs

I am a braindead conformist hypocrite

Wed, 19 Apr 2006 20:46:11 GMT

You fit in with:
Nerd

You fit into the nerd stereotype! Oh noes! While you float in the middle of the conformity continuum, you're not quite the most popular duck in the pond. That is, you may be a little socially rejected on account of your nerdiness. But don't let that get you down - you can always play with your gadget(s).

'What highschool stereotype do you fit in with?' at QuizGalaxy.com

fucking memes (HI DAN HI ARCKRA)

I'll marry you if you build me a working dalek.

Without going emo, I want to cry

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 23:00:40 GMT

Things have not been looking very up right now.

Short-term goals (this week):

* Finish two weeks worth of online coursework (Microeconomics) TONIGHT (sunday 11;50pm)
* Three Resumes and three coverletters for Portfolio class, due Tuesday night. (Also must have one reviewed by one of my peers before then.)
* Do a fullscale Storyboard (on posterboard) for my Capstone project, due Wednsday MORNING.
Also: work on 2d animation for the project's intro. (i've been putting this off WAY too long. I've only got five weeks to get the ENTIRE project done, and this is a big part. It's currently week six)
Will present what I have done so far on wednsday morning as well

Given that we still haven't fixed my home internet connection yet, it cuts out sporadically and often. VERY often. at points it will disconnect and reconnect every five minutes. Other times 10. Sometimes it will not come back online and I have to go all the way downstairs to reset the cable modem. (this includes unplugging BOTH power line and cable line). It likes to piss me off.

Long term goals (however long):

* Get a job (don't know where.. or how (portfolio's helping on that.))
* Get driver's license (get permit first dipstick)
* Get a car (uh)
* Get out of the house (haha)
* Move (BWAHAHAHAHAHAHA)
* Find a girlfriend (not currently high priority.. or feasible, considering I'm like the biggest geek ever :( )
* If all else fails, go gay and sell yourself to an art gallery.

Also, I will NOT be graduating this June as planned. Because I failed Composition 2 (online) miserably, I have to take it over. Looooovely.

And to top it off, IRCwise anyway:
I've been having issues with myself, and it keeps affecting others, ie being unable to accept some things. Sorry. It happens. Some things I would rather not deal with, even if they do seem asinine.

If ANY of my friends care, say something. Anything. Even if you don't know me very well. Let me know you're out there an actually care just a scrap.

Well

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 08:33:24 GMT

Today I'm 20. I'm waiting to care.

I also have class all day today. I'll be on campus for 15 hours, plus the three hours to and fro for commuting.

Mistress of Fate, lets get groovy, baby.

Omg it's here

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 19:11:37 GMT

New season of Dr Who has come to SciFi.

Hells yeah.

Discuss.